Juleigh Mayfield

Juleigh Mayfield

I have Officially Fucking Had It (Being Alone)

Everything these days seem to require 2 people to do it. I have officially realized this at many times during my life but these last few days ringing in the new year have left me RAW and Bruised and so over it that if I had a Gun…welll….it wouldn’t take two to pull the fucking trigger!

I had a great trip to Texas and was extremely grateful to my new friends for hosting me…but everyone had a partner and that was blaringly obvious. I was told I could move or should move because Nebraska is not offering any potential trajectory forward. I’m broke and do not have 2 nickel’s to rub together…with out a partner or marriage I’m stuck in this piss ant town.

On my flight back to desperation Ne. I was fondled and groped by a black man on AA Flight 3120 from Chicago to Omaha. Seat 9A couldn’t keep his hands off…When I reported it to the flight crew they said there is no where we can move you! Great! If I had a boyfriend or husband I would be sitting next to him and this would not be an issue…But i don’t have one of those. I have to take care of myself… ALWAYS ALONE

Then today I went and bought one of those over the toilet shelf things so i could make my pre war shithole of a bathroom at least livable. It came with pictures but even if I was an engineer you have to have 4 hands to put it together so i gave up cried screamed and threw it on the living room floor!! All this while screaming at alexa to be compliant and play my music library , I actually did something I don’t usually do…I opened up the crown royal and drank directly from the bottle!!

So I’m that bitch, Drinking heavily occasionally crying and breaking things! I was supposed to have a date tonight…with a disabled gentleman…before the date he asked what’s Intersex?, that means your a man?? I was like I can see around your disability but you cant see around mine?? Great!! Fuck off dude!!
and if your one of those people that say “He’s coming don’t look so hard?” or “You deserve the world” shut up!! Because that’s just salt in the wound at this point. Single people who Do Not want to hear those things are fucking done. So Do Not Share those comments with me.

I did get a kiss last night from a gay bartender. yay!! (If you could see my enthusiasm ) I wish i had a gun….Dramatic or Not I’m over being alone….called a trans or freak or man….I hope I die in 2021…I said it…That’s where I am at…I hope the world fucking implodes…..

I am sick of watching the snow melt and the only men interested in me wantr a blow job or sex and my friends are like ” But you do it!” NO SHIT SHERLOCKS I want to be touched and wanted even if its just sexual!! Maybe I should become a porn star lol.

Someone i know who forgets shit every 2 mins and is an asshole gave me a book for Christmas…An auto biography on some Trans woman and her journey!! FML I am not trans and could give to fucks about someone else’s story. If its any good they will make it into a movie…
Ive started manifesting this year, lets see if it works. then If i never have a bf or husband I can hire people to put shit together for me. after winning the lottery.

i hope 2021 is better for all parties. Im already over it! Back to my Crown Royal !!

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  1. Hello, you beautiful vibrant glowing and radiant star. You light up the world around you. I know this because I’ve seen it. I don’t know a lot about you but I do know you are a beautiful soul. Inside and out. I’m a church guy, God is my heart and soul. I’m Christian till the day I die but I’m open minded non judgemental and I absolutely love Walk walks of life. You are amazing keep shining bright. We are all born for greatness and bound to do great things. Your going to do great things I just know it. Its in your destiny. My passion in life is giving back, giving more skateboarding and at risk youth. I live for the needy. Its who I am. My fiance was born with both male and female parts. So Im familiar a little with where you ate coming from. Sadly she passed away a week before our wedding. I don’t identify as anything my heart falls in love with what my heart falls in love with. I’m not rich, I dont have anything to offer to anyone e. I’m just me. My whole life back in Hawaii was taken from me when my fiance passed away. I was well off and now I’m.just a broke soul wondering around trying to find myself and launch my brand for at risk youth. All I want out of life is to be able to give back do good and make an impact in this world. You are such a cute soul. You ate going to be ok I know it. I.love your pictures. Definitely going to overlook your website now that I’m here.