This XXY Journey has been long. This last year has been ROUGH.
It’s Pride week. I’m sure Some of you really don’t understand why the lgbtqia 🏳️🌈 community has pride celebrations. Let Me Enlighten you. Because THEY Have Survived in a place that Chastises￼ them, Hates them, doesn’t see them, encourages defeat, questions them, and throughout it all, they are still here. Treading Water in a Sea of WTF sometimes.
While I’ve had to transition in this last year I don’t identify as Trans as much as Intersex , I Do identify with The Struggle these women Face! THEY along with anyone else Deserves to be Prideful !
It’s 5am on Wednesday October 9th, well by the time this is posted later.
I am often robbed of sleep lately. Between meds and ailments and XXY health issues and getting older it just eludes me some nights. Today though , it’s like Christmas, I mean that feeling that something Special is on the other side of the bedroom door!
Tonight is our Dress Rehearsal for DARK HORIZON ORLANDO!
I haven’t been a part of anything Creative since The CWs Vampire Diaries in Feb of 2015 as Bradford.
I Didn’t think with the toe loss in 2015 the neurological issues the neuropathy in my legs and feet the lupus and Osteoporosis and the transition to fully female last year would allow me to Act, ever AGAIN
I was presented the opportunity to be creative in this realm and while I was unsure if I could Do it, I’m TIRED of sitting on the Proverbial Sidelines waiting to DIE. PUT ME IN COACH!
I believe in GOD and this Month He has put Flags on the field showing me my Worth and Value! Including me in things. Showing me people that are there for me, love me, fight for me, pictures from the past Showing me daily I’m a Fighter, I’m a person of Strength!
Today, this morning, I stumbled across a motivational post on Facebook.
A LONG HARD UGLY CRY
Two weekends ago, all my siblings went to a college football game tailgate party with their significant others. I wasn’t invited. Maybe they didn’t invite me because my parents were invited and Its common knowledge that we aren’t on speaking terms because of the Documentary?? I don’t know, I just know it hurt that I saw them all together. For me, I’ve just been getting all these insights and signs that it’s trivial, I’m NOT here on this planet for them, or they for me! It’s a life that I’m meant to learn from and share my story!
To live my new life my old life is forfeited.
Do I LOVE them LESS?? Of course NOT. The ones that want to be here will meet me on the other side and for their part my SIBLINGS have been Super SUPPORTIVE. They still don’t grasp what I’ve been through though
I’m PRIDEFUL I’m still here!
I know this post has been all over the place, I’ll wrap it up-
I used to tell my pageant Girls that when you get the Ball 🏈 You RUN LiKE HELL to the End zone!!
PLAY THE GAME!
OWN THE FIELD!
LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE
It’s GAME TIME
He’s putting me back in-
Have a Great Weekend- Juleigh 💕🌈🌹👻